Happy 2 months lil guy ~ we sure love you to the moon and back.
Time really flies when you raising a baby, yes it flies when you having fun too so I guess you could say for the most part they are one in the same thing except at 2 am when he decides he wants to be wide awake and it is play time, that just doesn't fit into our schedule anymore. It used to when we were coming home from parties at 5 am but these days dinner and a glass of wine followed by bed time at 10 pm is a late night out,these 2 am missions mostly involve me trying to get a 2 month old baby to sleep and praying to God for some sort of break.
Come 6 am and it is feed time again and that toothless grin and gurgle makes these sleep deprived parents smile back and the entire night of trying to get him back to sleep is forgotten.
When I chat to my other mommy friends and realise that there are other sleep deprived zombies, I mean mommies out there also covering their dark circles with concealer, in some sick way this makes me feel loads better knowing that I am not the only one who doesn't even have two minutes to eat something some days.
I am still trying to come to terms with the fact that it is ok to not be ok sometimes or to not compare myself to my other mommy friends who seem to have it all together and it is ok to leave him to cry for a minute while I have a cry of my own, this doesn't make me a bad mom, well I don't think it does...some days it just gets too much, all that responsibility when all you had to do before was look after yourself.
I am always worried someone reading this may take me up the wrong way, so please don't ~ becoming a mom is a massive blessing just coupled with massive responsibility and that has taken me two months to adjust to and some days I don't feel I have adjusted at all....I'm sure I will get there, I am still learning how to ride that bike with training wheels on and one day soon I am hoping to be able to remove them and it will all be smooth riding from there on out.
Even though my pre-pregnancy clothes don't yet fit (almost fitting into those skinny jeans just a few more kg to go to get rid of the muffin top look) ,my party dresses are collecting dust in my cupboard and the most exciting topic I am debating right now is why I feel vaccinations are good....generally I am a much happier person because of My Lil boy.
How Big?: We will only be visiting the clinic again on the 6th of October for his weigh in and second round of vaccinations so I did the measuring myself. He is approximately 6 kg and roughly 61 cm
Clothing Size: In his 4 week post I remember saying how I was dieing to dress him in his 0-3 clothing, well I take that all back because I wish he would stop growing and stay my Lil boy forever. He has started to outgrow some of his smaller 0-3 baby grows but the other 0-3 items either fit or are still too big for him. A size 0 shoe is even on the big side, strange because he has massive feet.
Eating: So previously we had him on this strict schedule as per the nursing sister at the Clinic we go to for his weigh-ins. We have pretty much been following this schedule up until yesterday. The method behind her madness was to get him to feed at 6 pm and then only at 6 am again, sorry we tried everything that she said, we stuck to it 100% and after MANY sleepless nights he is still not sleeping through and giving him 40 ml of water at 2 am is not tricking him into sleeping through the night. This boy isn't a small baby and I honestly would just like to feed him when he is hungry and get a few hours sleep in at night. Before we put him on this schedule, I was feeding him at 10 pm and most nights he would sleep until about 5 am but according to her this was not right. Now I am stuck with a crying baby at 2 am because 40 ml of water is just not cutting it for him - this is extremely exhausting. So as of today I am going with my gut and will let you know how this turns out.
Sleep: He is sleeping roughly 1 hour between most of his feeds in the day now and at night about 4 hours or 5 if we are lucky. On the 19th of August he blessed us with 6 hours and 37 minutes of sleep. He sleeps in his bassinet still in our room. The past two weeks though have been rather challenging. I am not sure what he is going through or what is bothering him but he has been sleeping for 20 minutes at a time during the day, if I am lucky.
Movement: His arms and legs are still at it, forever moving, never still unless he is asleep that is. His neck has gotten really strong so he holds it up for quite a long period before it flops to the side. All he wants to do is stand these days, so cute but rather taxing on my arms. Who needs gym right?!
Milestones: During his second month there were a lot of milestones or firsts as I like to call them.
Excitement this week: Our friends Karin and Alex have arrived in Cape Town with their baby boy Jaden and we cannot wait to meet him. We will be going up to Langebaan on the weekend to spend some time with them - YAY, bring on the weekend!
- He met his other grandparents for the first time in his 4th week.
- He went to his first wine farm outing with us
- He was blessed in his 5th week
- 19th of August he smiled properly for the first time
- 27th of August I managed to catch his smile on camera for the first time
- He has definitely discovered his tongue, he pushes it out a lot and copies you if you pull your tongue out at him
- Started drooling a lot this past month and it seems he enjoys blowing bubbles, his mouth is always covered in bubbles.
- He has discovered that his hands are attached to his body and he stares at them so much that sometimes he squints at them and moves his head back in confusion - hilarious to watch.
- In his 7th week he started cooing and having "conversations" with us.
Excitement this week: Our friends Karin and Alex have arrived in Cape Town with their baby boy Jaden and we cannot wait to meet him. We will be going up to Langebaan on the weekend to spend some time with them - YAY, bring on the weekend!
For most part the last month has been a good one. The last two weeks, not so much. All babies go through growth spurts and moments where they perhaps don't feel themselves and well I think the last two weeks Camden hasn't been feeling 100% himself. He has been very up and down and I can tell you now I love my boy with all my heart but with him being miserable and then happy and then miserable etc. it has made me feel very drained and down but that was just the last two weeks and as they all say...this too shall pass!
Eight weeks post-partum: Started training and it felt good to feel sore again, however the last two weeks things have been somewhat chaotic and exhausting and I haven't found 30 minutes in my day to put aside for training let alone shower. I started to eat clean after my last blog post and I lost 4.8kg in two weeks..pat myself on the back there quickly. I realise now that losing this baby weight might take me a few months and I need to come to terms with it. I had another cry the other day about how my body has changed, about the stretch marks and how fat I feel (am) but all of these things can be fixed, I just need to give myself time. Right now dealing with a fussy baby is my first priority and the days I manage to get at least a little sleep ( 4 hours) are the days I will use to train.
Physically, I am still suffering with major joint pain, must have something to do with the pregnancy hormones and the extra weight I am carrying around. Performing lunges may have to be put on hold for a while as it really hurts and I don't want to cause myself more damage than good, so for now those can wait.
Emotionally, I have been feeling a little down but this is due to the fact that I have been feeling so overwhelmed by Camden's moods of late and not being able to get much done for myself has just been driving me crazy. I need to learn how to take a chill pill and let the dishes, exercise, washing or house cleaning wait until I have the time to do it.
Until next time...
